67 Memorial Tour in the Bay Area

All I was told from the bereaved family then was the memorial service would take place at San Francisco Bay in sea burial style sometime during the weekend of mid November. 

I was able to make this 3-day 5-night trip to the Bay Area (that's all I could afford to)  in my favorite "let-it-happen" style without car or hotel arrangements, but it turned out the best anyway.

I arrived in freezing SFO at night, picked up by my long lost friend from the art college. I felt like home seeing her, as her place was always my home every time I visited the Bay Area. 

The ceremony took place in the next morning, departing from a harbor in Sausalito. There were some old familiar faces as well as some new ones but mostly already familiar by Facebook. 

It was intimate and beautiful, with heartfelt saxophone performance by our old friend. Returning him to the ocean was the brilliant idea by his little sister, as he loved the ocean, always diving and fishing. 

The young lady who made this ceremony happen also flew in to join, and among the bereaved family and close friends, she was also crying on the boat, as well as at the memorial lunch which followed, where everyone shared memory of our dear departed. She said in tears, "It's so amazing how he touched my life so deeply when I only met him for a few minutes." 

After the beautiful ceremony, I decided to stay with my new friend who was close to the dear late friend in his last years and found out about his death first. She gave me a ride to her home in Nevada City. What an adventurous trip it was! 

She is a social worker, helping homeless people. And she told me that our dear late friend also helped so many lives and inspired people by his music performance on the streets and at local cafes.

She also is vegan by the way, and it was perfect to adjust my slack diet back to what I first started, since California is vegan friendly.

I had no idea but Nevada City had interesting culture, artistic galleries reminiscent of Berkeley, music performance everywhere, organic grown vegetables, and unpaved roads, full of something I had not experienced in daily life.

After paying a visit to his friends and given hugs from them the next day, I headed back to the Bay Area by Amtrak, then picked up again by my old school mate to take the memorial tour in our old school, my old neighborhood, and our favorite cafe in Berkeley. We had so much fun!

During the whole trip, I felt my dear late friend's presence and could sense him laughing, much happier than what he had been for the last few years. I bet he set me up to reunite with old friends and also new precious friends. 

Thank you, my dear old friend! I enjoyed every moment of the trip...and I know it's leading to something even more wonderful.

45 NTA (Nerve Transmission Adjustment) doctor

Boy, I had never experienced dizziness like that before! I could not even get out of bed to reach my phone. 

I felt very lucky to have a very helpful 9 year-old daughter who made carrot juice for me besides fixing her own breakfast.

By the next day I felt better enough to go to the NTA doctor*, who was the only doctor I relied on in Japan for more than 10 years, but unfortunately I hadn't been able to afford him lately (those really good treatments are not covered by insurance). It was about time to visit him  finally.

As always, he told me straight what was wrong with me: It's post-detox diet.

He found out I was on strict detox/diet and said it's not good to be too strict because getting back to normal diet is very difficult and dangerous for the body to adjust.

I felt better and went to work after the treatment.

For about a month I felt a bit dizzy but nothing compared to the first day.  Only once it got worse again within a month, and the doctor asked me if I was taking any supplement. Strange, but it was true that I had started taking "good for cancer" supplement someone sent for me. 

The doctor says if you notice a physical problem, suspect anything you recently started taking i.e supplements or change of diet.

So many supplements were recommended by many people, but I decided to stick with "being happy" and taking healthy food as much as possible.

I stopped going to the doctor after several times, partly because of time and money, but more I wanted to be proactive about curing myself by not relying on him, the miracle doctor. I will save him as the last resort!

* NTA (Nerve Transmission Adjustment) treatment which combines ancient Chinese medicine, Ayurveda, homeopathy, qigong, etc.)

44 Post-detox issue

After the 30days of Incurables Program, I wasn't sure how to adjust my diet. There is no specific instruction what to do after detox, and that was one of the problems of self-taught program/not having an instructor.

We probably should stay as close as detox period: Raw and organic food, no salt, sugar, caffeine, alcohol, additives, animal-related food, but it was almost impossible to do so in Tokyo!

The first weekend after detox, I went out with my Mom to a vegan restaurant  to celebrate our health: She recovered enough to go out on her own, and I completed the 30-day. Although everything tasted a bit too salty for me, the food and atmosphere there was really fulfilling and made me feel happy.

My sense of relief started to prevail. The following weekend I visited my good friend who helped me through surgery. Although I started out "good" by bringing in lunch packed with veggies, 

as time passed by in her beautiful house on the hill looking down the ocean in gorgeous sunset hour, when California wine with cheese, prosciutto, and some gourmet appetizer was getting served in front of me, I couldn't find any reason to resist.

Ah, the Chardonnay tasted so wonderful. Then I gave myself permission to enjoy. 

Somehow my over-sensitiveness to regular food was gone while I was enjoying my pre-cancer favorite meal naturally. Life was good!

After a few days, however, I caught myself gotten irritated and depressed really badly for the first time in months. I am not sure if it was anything to do with change of diet. (Maybe I should have refrained from prosciutto or another glass of wine.)

Finally one morning after getting mad to my daughter and nagging her really badly the night before, I woke up in terrible dizziness. I could not move my head or eyes, and felt nauseous. Oops,did I drink too much last night? None! Then what happened?

43 Sweet temptations to "stuff feelings"

Although my detox was not nearly perfect, I noticed how sensitive I became to salt, sugar, caffeine, and animal-scent (in dairy product and meat) as well as chemical additives. 

Neither of them made me feel good, however, sometimes I had urges to fill myself with those to "run away from sufferings". In such cases, every time after some moments of tasting them, I realized they were no comforts after all. Those were like "junk-switch", which would lead me to unhealthy appetite one after another once turned on. 

As Lola says, sugar, caffeine, alcohol would "stuff" your feelings. They may comfort you (numb you) temporarily, but as long as you don't "feel the feelings", there is no escape.

How weak to temptations we poor humans are!

Contrarily, I still cannot give up on all the "good" food in the world. I'm still in doubt that I have to deny all the fine cuisine in the whole world to justify "healthy eats". I wish to enjoy them carefreely once my system is back to normal. Or I'll leave it open and see how my appetite changes along the way at least!

42 Experiencing 30-day detox (Incurables Program)

I felt so light, slightly dizzy, craving for salty taste (most vegetables and fruit are naturally sweet) and solid and warm food. The good news was, in mid summer in Tokyo, I don't remember being too hot to walk for 90 minutes in total every day, or even felt tired, thanking to juicing power. 

There is a juice bar at a station I use, which often saved me on the way home, to make it home without fainting in hunger.

I got lots and lots of carrot pulp every day after making juice, which I hated to throw away, so every day I managed to make it into some meal. With flax seed oil and almonds with cinnamon to make it like a dessert, or with apple cider vinegar, sprouts and raw GARLIC* to make it a salad. My daughter had to eat a lot of carrot pulp in her meal, too.

Before getting allergic to carrots, I discovered spinach and banana juice (green smoothy), using a simple blender, which is much faster to make and no wasting pulp, and less sweet. 

There were little hurdles here and there: Going-outs, friends visiting, a short trip during the 30 days.

The funniest solution for lunch-outing was smuggling my healthy raw-food lunch and juice into McDonald's.

I think I did it for 3 different settings.

It was impossible to prepare raw food for 3 meals or more in mid summer, so I gave up being perfect on the trip, and simply did my best and avoided stress.

*Dr. Schulze recommends (raw) GARLIC and CAYENNE PEPPER the most powerful herbs to fight diseases.

41 Dr. Schulze's Incurables Program

Dr. Schulze's Incurables Program

My mission during the program:

1. Get up 1hr early for preparation

2. Make enough juice to drink in the morning and to fill 2L water bottle to bring to work.

3. Make sure to supply enough organic carrots, beets, apples, oranges, blueberries, lemons, garlic, etc. (Suggested juice contents are different for each program)

4. Prepare raw food: fresh fruit&veggies, dried fruit, raw nuts to bring to work.

5. Walk 60-90 min. every day

6. Hot and Cold Water Therapy (Shower) 1-2times/day

Incurables Program consists of:
Week1. Bowel/Colon Cleansing

Week2. Liver/Gallbladder Cleansing

Week3. Kidney/Bladder Cleansing

Week4. Bowel/Colon Cleansing

Each cleansing program lasts 5 days, then 2 days interval (I made it on weekend) before moving on to the next one, in total said 30 days, but really 28 days for me.

Each program has specific herbal formulas, detox tea, etc. On intervals I could skip that part and stay with raw food and juice.

Again, I had never tried any "detox" or "fasting", in other words, I had never had tolerance without food, so I was very worried if I was going to make it...

But somehow, I cleared Week 1.

40 Everything was perfect on the 1st day at work

I got a juicer and 2L water bottle ready to start Dr.Schulze's Incurables Program anytime, but I just wanted to wait and see how it would go at the new job. 

"How I would fit the job or people" would be my concern usually, but this time, "how I would handle my diet at work" was on top of it.

Well, now that I know I create my reality, so I shift concern to intention to "enjoy" and "appreciate" work and diet!

So there came the first day at work. The first hurdle was welcome lunch; I told my boss that I got some limitations on food without being too specific. Limitation on food means antisocial, which I'd hate, but I had to find a mutual solution. I decided to tell people that I got "some physical issues" thus taking healthy food to take care of myself. I had to protect myself from losing the job by mentioning "cancer", just to be safe.

I learned that most people were having desk lunch, which would be ideal for me to go on the detox program, so I decided to start from the next Monday.

I felt relaxed and fitted at work, which was a great relief. And I happened to find the lady sitting next to me was also very health-conscious, and knew a lot about veganism. It was incredible to meet someone this close, considering how Japanese people are ignorant about veganism.

After work, I stopped by the organic grocery store near the office to explore. It's fun to study all kinds of "good" food, but at the same time, It's a hard fact that every single healthy item costs about 3 times more than what I used to spend... 
"It's OK, I should be able to afford what I need, because I simply ASK for it!"

Of course yes. At the end of the day I came home to find that I unexpectedly received money in my bank account! It was the director of my previous job, concerned about my health and specially arranged retirement benefit for me. I am so grateful for him, as well as for the universe to make this miracle happen!

39 Natural Food by Natural Farming

After I returned from US, I had 5 days to adjust myself and living environment into the detox phase before starting a new job.

First of all for Dr. Schulze's Incurables Program, a lot of organic fruit and vegetables are required to make 4 gallons of juice/day. Financially realistically, I decided to use carrots mainly from the list, because I found a place delivers organic carrots in bulk.

For other veggies and fruit, I couldn't decide which delivery service to choose from, so I left that open and went out for a lunch appointment with friends who came to see me at the hospital.

I arrived at the vegan cafe too early, so I picked up a book and started reading. The book was about "Natural farming", which was the answer I was looking for! (This book is only available in Japanese as far as I know)

Before that, I easily felt safe when it's said "organic", although I didn't even know what "organic" exactly means or what are included. It must be better than regular products with agricultural chemicals, but "natural farming" was a whole new concept for me.

It was mind-blowing to learn what it takes to grow products naturally. It takes years and years for fertilized and damaged soil to return to natural state, as in the woods, so that products grow without pests. 

I bought the book and learned about natural farming vs organic farming, and since then I've been taking regular delivery service of naturally grown vegetables and brown rice. They taste gooood! I'm not sure if something like this is available outside Japan. 

I don't want to go too crazy on how safe what I eat, which would stress me out, so I eat "organic vegetables" with less pesticide use and also regular veggies sometimes, but I am just conscious of "good" food as much as I can.

There is a miracle powder which consists of scallop shell to remove pesticide residue and wax, which is very useful for non-organic products. What I'm using is distributed only in Japan, but I found something similar (the same?) for overseas: Scallo-P

Back to lunch at the cafe, the girls showed up and they saw me alive and healthy after the surgery without chemical treatment, and even looked better than ever, and they especially surprised how clear my skin became, which made me happy. 

The food there was very few greens with lots of brown rice and greasy fried tofu, but having a good time with friends helped!

37 Amazing Vegan/Raw Food Restaurant

The next day we moved on to the next and the last friend's in West Hollywood. She is a successful business person running 2 companies based in the area, so cool and inspiring. 

She also understood my situation fully and kindly offered to look after my daughter so I could go to Erewhon to supply myself with organic needs. That was very nice of her! I

So there I soaked myself in organic land. It was so exciting to see all the advanced products not yet sold in Japan, and some familiar ones in much less price (most of organic products sold in Japan are imported from US). Too bad that the things I wanted to buy the most required me to live locally.

For dinner, she took us to this amazing organic vegan/raw food restaurant, "Cafe Gratitude", where she actually went to put us on the waiting list otherwise it would've been impossible to make a reservation on the day. She said the restaurant was one of the hottest spots in town!

Even the single fact that vegan is so popular makes me want to move to L.A.!  There are very few vegan restaurants in Tokyo. When it comes to raw food restaurant, as far as I know, there is only 1!

Her daughter who grew up to be a fine lady joined our dinner as a happy surprise, as well as another cheerful old friend, to make our table full of happy girls in all ages.

The food there was amazing! I wouldn't mind being vegan forever if I got to eat this quality food all the time!

36 Dr. Schulze's store in Marina Del Rey

The next day we left Ellie's to go to Dr. Schulze's store in Marina Del Rey, which was another big destination for this trip. At the store we had arranged to meet another friends,  who we were going to stay with the night. They were the ones who got me into Dr. Schulze. 


One step in, and there it smelled so clean and herbal.

I was planning to buy one of the detox programs, but when I got to know the details by the sales lady, I got blown away.


During the 30 day detox program, I must drink fresh juice exclusively for the maximum result. It sounded impossible since I would be working full time at my new job.

It reminded me of the terminal cancer patients, who were constantly fed fresh juice, as I read in Gerson treatment.

According to the store, however, I was considered "seriously ill" , so I should try the most stoic way. 

They told me that fresh juice could be good up to 8 hours in good condition, so I could make a lot in the morning to bring to work, and I could eat raw food to avoid hunger i.e. bananas, dried fruit, raw nuts and veggies, etc.

My silly concern was that it would be killing me to prepare good-smelling food for my daughter while on detox! Also, I doubted if I could stick to it for that long since I had never even tried fasting for a day! What I've been doing is hard enough already... I can't handle hunger... there's so much work to do to prepare...

I was in a huge resistance.

What if I intend to cure and do without such strict detox....? Lola said follow what you and your body feel good about. This is where I still get confused, between if this is my mind is telling a story to resist or if this is what I (my large self) is saying no.

That was when my old friend Keith showed up with his lovely girl friend and daughter, so we got busy introducing new faces to each other, exchanging hugs, and brief updates.

Then what Keith told me opened my eyes,
"Well, if you are serious and committed to cure on your own instead of taking chemical treatment, don't you wanna try something extraordinary?"

He's right. there could be an easier way, but for me now, I need to try something special, so that I feel committed big time, in order to strengthen my intention to cure.

So I was convinced to try Incurables Program, and decided to get a juicer when I get home, arrange delivery of organic vegetables in bulk, get a big water bottle to carry around, and buy  a lot of raw food bars for emergency while in the US. 

All set.

09 Dr. Schulze

As I was trying Rotation Diet, which is the most simple and fundamental eating habit I ever learned, I also tried to avoid wheat, white rice, dairy, meat, greasy food, sugar, caffeine, alcohol as much as possible to Alkalize my system. As a result, I started getting compliments that I became lean and my skin texture became finer in a few weeks, and as much as I felt good about how I looked better outside, I was also happy that "inside" of me should look better as well.

I switched from cappuccino to soy latte first, since I could not cut cold turkey on coffee during work, then to soy milk with coffee substitutes. I switched from snacks to dry fruit and bananas, or steamed pumpkin with maple syrup.

I am not a good dieter at all and had a hard time adjusting.

As far as diet is concerned, after the surgery, I took it further to follow Dr. Schulze's diet , which recommends veganism, raw food, no salt, and vegetable juicing, which is Similar to Dr. Max Gerson's vegetable juicing method. Among great naturopathics, his was the most reachable for me. I recommend his site because his books about health are all available to read via PDF on his web site. He does not only sells his herbal formulas that cure all the diseases, but he recommends some techniques and habits for healthy way of living both physically and spiritually.

04 Rotation Diet and Alkaline Food

Before the official diagnosis by biopsy, I was already consulting with a friend who's a great source for natural healing.

What I learned first was that cancer is systemic illness, therefore changing the constitution is crucial. Lesson 1: Cancer body is acidified, so it needs to be alkalized.

At that time I was healthy overall, but only thing which was bothering me was the strong drowsiness after meal. I told her about it, and she immediately suspected that my body must have become sensitive and developed allergic reaction.

So I was convinced to start my first act, "Rotation Diet" and to take "Alkaline Food".

Rotation diet was to find which food my body was reacting to and to lessen the symptom by not taking the same food for 3 days. The instruction was to take 1 kind of protein, carbohydrate and any vegetables per day to rotate for 4 days. To mix this with Alkaline food diet, it was very difficult for me as a starter.

I had to avoid alcohol, coffee, milk, chocolate and wheat-related sweets because those are most acid food. And I had to avoid wheat for 3 days, which was the most difficult thing in Japan. They are not as gluten-awared as Americans!

For carbs to rotate for 4 days, I chose Quinoa (most alkaline and high in protein grain), taros, sweet potatoes, and pumpkins. For proteins, I chose lean meat or eggs, fish, dairy, and soy.

I made a food chart and tried to stick to it. I actually invented some amazing sweets, which I will post separately.

This made sense to me, and although this was not easy, I started to feel better and less drowsy. I also found myself slightly reacting to wheat. By avoiding wheat for 3 days, my skin got so much smoother!